ok so im supposed to paint 3 paintings and submit it this day
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2 weeks passed and i did only 18% of it
i already have the materials
i have the time
but i only did 1 sketch and another that is not yet finished.
...
this is how bad i am as an artist
, this habit will cost me my dream job(s)
i failed, somebody told me that when there are times that you make mistakes
you shouldnt beat yourself out of misery , just stay cool , and just do what you have to do.
.what if i stay this way? what if i will eventually fall out of art?
(yeah from the words "fall out of love")
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i dont know what other jobs to do
i cant work all night for 8-9 hours just like call center agents
i cant stand all day for 8 hours like sales ladies do.
i cant sell things
i cant do much of the common jobs today.
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this is my only option.
so hard
im verrrrrrryyy bad.
i hate myself.